i can't fight this carnal feeling
why underlining in library books? i am not sure, maybe it's an inadvertent figure of speech of sorts (possibly a metaphor ilana (fuckshitgoddamnit Andrew!)) saying that whatever it is i want to learn in life, can't i be a little bit naughty while doing it?
anyway, what's prompted me to start this shizzie up and confess my soul to all? a picture of jared leto and scarlet johansen in people magazine. the most recent issue of the sexist bachelors or whatever pop culture gossip crap is in there. go buy it, cause they are yummy, especially that jude law on the front cover. anyway, as i digress, i must confess why i reference the jared letto and scarlet j. pic. i guess it just invokes this carnal feeling...a desire...a want. not that i am idolizing them exactly, but more so a concept. one one side there is a high fashion, beautiful woman with grace and intelligence, on the other hand there is a mysterious, grungy guy, with some sense of anti fashion style and a darker side to his personality. why is it i can't shake some retarded infatuation i acquired in like the 7th grade. ever watch one fine day with george clooney and michelle pheiffer, then you'd understand the term "my deep dark chocolate layer." still following me? i hope so.
i know in reality infatuation is infatuation, and it isn't functional in the grand scheme of things. furhtermore, i am happy where i'm at no doubt. i could give anyone just as much commentary on how valueable it is to have what i have, and how much i love it. but once again, there is just something else that reaches me on such a different level that over power just about everything else. all the more for me to conclude that - infatuation sucks for the mere reason that you don't know enough a person to decide whether or not you like them or dislike them. you are in this predicament of awe and lust because they are on some retarded pedestal you put them on. it just leads to disappointment and then to dissolution. grrr.
favorite music pick of the moment - rilo kiley - does he love you.
1 Comments:
i will enumerate, because that's what i do:
1) woooo hoooo! so glad you have ventured into the magical world of blogging. i am so pleased i can now read about your life in every detail over the internet without ever having to speak to you ever again. ;)
2) nice ref on the metaphor fuckshitgoddamn. loved it.
3)"infatuation...sucks for the mere reason that you don't know enough a person to decide whether or not you like them or dislike them. you are in this predicament of awe and lust because they are on some retarded pedestal you put them on. it just leads to disappointment and then to dissolution." i feel you, yo. holla.
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